2 years ago, around this time actually. I believed that I had conquered my battles with suicide and self-harm. It was an amazing feeling, man.
I shared my story, helped others with their self-harm addictions and received a lot of encouragement.
Now, I just feel like a hypocrite.
Within the last 4 months, I’ve burned myself 3 times. Truth be told, I feel like doing it more often than that now.
It’s hard to explain to someone that inflicting pain on your own body brings you peace. It literally takes any and all emotional/mental pain and suffering away.
Sometimes I wonder if I’m searing parts of soul, which is why I can’t feel that pain anymore.
Looks like I’ve officially relapsed.